How I Spent My....

Last week: snowed in due to blizzard
Last weekend: preparing for Christmas, panic'ing my way across colorado, nebraska and iowa
Last 2 days: having christmas, visiting friends, panic'ing my way back across colorado, nebraska and iowa.

The blizzard here in colorado last week pretty much messed up my entire schedule. I missed PT , we got started on vacation a day and a half late, the kids missed finals because school was closed. I am catching up on work because work was closed for 2 days last week, and then 2 more days for holiday this week.

I got to hit the casino in iowa.. It was fun, but I didnt' stay long enough to win or even lose all my money. I sure wish there was some where closer to here that I could go on a regular basis. Oh well, it was fun anyway.

I got an iPod, magic bullet, some jewelry, some bath and body works and thats about it.. but I love all that I got. I am so glad that I have in-laws who care about what I like. The kids made out like bandits, and I still owe the princess a couple things that I couldn't quite get in time for the holidays, but she knows they are comin, so its all good. The boy got everything he could have wanted, except for the xbox 360, but he still made out better than he ever expected. I am pleased with their xmas presents and I know that they are really happy about them.

We are expecting another snow storm starting tonight/tomorrow, as bad or worse they say, as the one last week. I am fretting that the airport and/or interstate don't get shut down. The kids fly out on saturday to their dads. I know they are looking forward to it. I'm sure that somehow a blizzard closing down the airport and interstate would be my fault or I'm keeping the kids away from him, bla bla blah. Not much I can do about him being pissed or a blizzard, so pretty much he can fuck off if it comes to that.

Back to the grind. not sure why nothing is playing on my itunes. I have transferred a bunch of music to the new iPod from here and its all charged. i am happier than i expected witht he new gadget.

2 days and watching for snow

Well, as would be expected, in my world anyway, travel plans are about to be messed up. We are now unsure if we can make the drive to the in-laws because of weather. We are supposed to get a beating, and the storm is supposed to head east, right where we are headed. I guess we will just wait and see...

Things have been busy at work. We had our holiday party on friday. The party itself wasn't as good as it could have been, the food was great, the location was great, the gifts were blah, and as usual, there were many inside jokes. My boss had a party at his place afterward, which was a blast of a time. I got pissed drunk, but had a most awesome time. Saturday I felt fine, despite my rough Friday night. This actually suprised me. the honey was kind enough to stop drinking so that I could do shots. My mistake was keeping up with the regular drinkers. I don't drink enough to keep up with someone who does it every weekend. Learned a new recipe for Buffalo Chicken Wing Dip. DAMN tasty stuff... does NOT go with Jack and Lemonade though.

I missed therapy today because the Princess needed picked up at school cause she didn't feel good. We had an expensive emergency yesterday when the Expedition got a flat tire. This fix required $500 in 2 new tires, alignment, oil change. YIKES. Oh well, fortunately, we are doing OK on finances that it wasn't a eat or drive type of situation, it just makes the travel for the holiday a little more tight. It might even mean no casino for me.. OH NO, THE HORROR!

The kids are way excited, and I am too. The Princess has guessed most of her presents. The boy thinks that he got his already. We gave early presents on Saturday, but not the important ones for the Princess. We took the boy to get his rollerblades so that he could try them on. Holy crap am I glad we did. Size 10. OMG. He got nice ones, but they are hockey skates, so are taking him some getting used to. But he thinks thats all he's getting, mostly because thats what we told him, but he's in for a huge surprise. He's getting good stuff, besides the rollerblades. The princess is too, but she got more clothes than he did, and she's been given some of it already. That was her early gift. There are still some more things I'd like to get her, but with the holiday fast approaching and the emergency expense, it will have to wait until after they come back from their Dads.

My neck has been jacked up since Saturday, but I just keep plugging along. I wanted to go to therapy yesterday, but couldn't manage it with the Princess not feeling well. The honey didn't get to work till noon, so he couldn't very well take off early to go get her, so it fell on my shoulders. Tomorrow though, I will hopefully get some work for the trip that will help. I did manage to push through the final shopping and what not on Sat and Sun, even with a horrible headache and stiff neck. That was the best thing. I don't think the honey knows how much I appreciate his helping me get shopping done and all the time he has spent at the mall and in crowded places. I know he hates all that stuff, but he has totally been a trooper and stepped up to the plate to help me since I couldn't physically do it all myself. I wish that I could, but I can't shop like I used to since the accident.

I was also a gigantic bitch on sunday cause I didn't feel well, but he understood that too. This whole accident has put a strain on our relationship, because it demands so much of him, but I appreciate all that he has done for me.

I know one of my presents, and now I am struggling with guilt for having asked for something expensive. I appreciate it, I want it, but it isn't necessary and it was quite a bit of money that we could now use. However, I have wrapped it instead of having it early and we'll see if I end up taking it back. I do want it though. I don't know what else that I got, but the honey got me something that he has been super secretive about. He knows I hate the surprises. Its easier for me not to know, but he's not that sly, heh.

Its coming, hopefully we get to be with family, but either way, I am stoked to have the kids and they would just have to wait on some of the gifts that are at grandmas house if we don't get to go. I think we will though. We have the 4WD now, and have the time to get a hotel if needed. So, we'll see how that all plays out over the next couple days with this storm.

Holiday Party

Today is our company holiday party. Everyone gets dressed up, we go to the nicest hotel in town and start the celebration at 11:00am. Don't even have to come back to work. They usually give out nice prizes and its entertaining. The food is good, the drinks are free. Today should be a good day. Still have work to do before the party and I've been getting lots done this morning.

Been reading websites about the Wiimote flying through TV's and what not. Most of it seems to be people just being over zealous with the game. Too funny. We've been fortunate to have nothing more than sore muscles in our house.

PT yesterday. Was good. worked hard. A bit sore today, but not doing too badly. Went to bed early so I think that helped.

More shopping this weekend to finish off presents. I had a bout where I felt bad about lying to the kids about what they want vs. what we bought, but I truly want them to be surprised. I think they both will be and I think they will be happy, even if they don't get everything they wanted. But I think they will get most of what they want.

Gonna try to play the game tonight. I haven't played since Monday, so I am excited to do something. My friend is still not talking to me or anyone associated with me because of it. Too bad he's a 29 yr old child. Makes me sad to lose a friend over a stupid game, but I apologized, either he can accept it, or lose 6 more friends cause he thinks he can't be friends with people I'm friends with. Sucks to be lonely like him. Oh well.

Stomach in knots

So today was supposed to be my deposition with my attorney and the insurance adjuster for the other person. My stomach has been in knots for the past week over this, wondering how its going to go. I got a call about 10 min before to say its been cancelled and will be rescheduled. Hrmph. Now I get the pleasure of fretting over the holidays about it. Oh well.

Just have a couple more presents to buy and then we are done with the kiddos. That is good. Ready for vacation. So far I have done a good job of throwing them off track of their gifts. Which is highly unusual for me. I usually can't wait to give them the things that they really want. Got another week of holdout...we'll see how that goes. I have even managed a straight face to tell them no to the things they want, and we got, but I want them to be surprised.

Had PT yesterday. Feeling alright today, not too sore or stiff. I think that I am getting better. Still no word on my MRI stuff, but oh well, since it is the holidays, I presume that doctors take much vacation or something. I have been too preoccupied to even have a minute to call them.

Busy at work, busy at home.. life is pretty good at the moment, just busy.

a week has passed...

..and here is why i haven't written. I have been having horrible pains in my neck, not sleeping well, general kid and friend drama, and all around busy.

My neck has been sore and painful since last tuesday's PT. I barely made it through work on Wed. called in sick on Thursday, pushed through work on friday. I didn't sleep much over last week with that pain, despite taking more prescriptions to kill a horse. I still don't feel caught up on my sleep. I can hardly move my neck and shoulder on my left side, but unfortunately, this time of year, I can only allow limited downtime as there is much to accomplish and bedone before the holidays. I didn't get to PT on Thursday because I couldn't physically drive. I can hardly turn my head, even now, and shopping took longer than expected because my knee and neck were just killing me and we had to stop for a bit. For lunch in fact, which was nice.

Work has been busy trying to get desktops and laptops migrated to users. This week is our company holiday party. That will be fun on Friday, but what that also means is all the people who are remote bring their laptops in for me to work on and fix problems with. That starts today and I will be busy up until the party starts on Friday afternoon.

Over the weekend, the honey and I managed to get away from everyone and go shopping. We got the kids their ipods and misc other things, but still have a couple more things to pick up. We also got the dogs their new harnesses for traveling. Sasha didn't like hers and pretty much pouted the whole night. They are just nylon harnesses so they are wearing them right now to get used to them. Mojo just appreciated all the love he got while we were putting it on him. He doesn't care one way or the other. Sasha is still a bit pouty about having to wear hers. Funny puppies. We also bought the roommate an ipod. He has wanted one forever and just didn't have and didn't want to spend the money on a big ipod. We got him the 30g one. We had a friend over for Ham dinner on Sunday and presented him with his gift early. He loved it. For someone who is as gruff and hardened (for good reasons) about the holidays, he appreciated it alot and despite it screwing up his music on import into iTunes, he loves it. That is the point of giving.

Also during that friend coming over, he (the friend) and I got in a huge argument and I was yelling even. Man, I was so offended and couldn't believe the shit that had come out of his mouth. Yesterday, I sent him an email to apologize for yelling. Haven't heard back, i'm pretty sure he is still pissed, but honestly, i could give a shit. He acted like a child and if he's still pissed, he's still acting like a child. The honey explained to me that people don't like it when I don't back down because they generally know they are in the wrong. He said that I won't argue for the sake of arguing, but if I don't back down, then the other person is probably in the wrong. I don't let people walk on me. I thought that was funny that he said that, because, in general, its pretty true. I don't just argue or piss people off, I don't say things just to be abrasive, though I am very blunt, but its more that I don't want to put the energy into being angry or upset with someone else, so I just don't argue. Roll with the punches, go with the flow. So, anyway, now that I jumped in that angry/argument boat, I'm adrift at sea knowing that someone is holding a grudge against me. It will be a while before I get over that. But life continues and in the end, he was an asshole and fuck that if he can't accept it.

On the note that set off the argument, I got a new piece of armor in my game and generally had fun since joining my new guild. They run every night of the week, though I can't go alot of the time because its too late for me stay up. But i can go once or twice a week and on weekends. But my hat is awesome, and mostly I had a blast running through the instances that I had never been in. They are very technical, so I made a bunch of mistakes, but just gotta get to know the technique and i'll be ok. I went on one last night too and got better, I thought, since I learned the strategy on Sunday. So, for a change, time in game has been awesome recently.

Tonight is another one, which starts much earlier, but not sure if I will be able to make it as the Boy has a holiday choir concert.

{Listening to Stayin Alive Remix by Wyclef Jean}

seeing as how...

Its 2 weeks past thanksgiving, I finally got my photos sent out and put up. I didn't take but a couple photos, so i'm not sure, but I am in exactly 1 picture. I don't know that there is many of me from anyone else, either. I think that makes me sad, but I can't say that I didn't expect it. In my sister's house, she has walls and walls of pictures.. with exactly 1 of me in any of them. Par for the course, oh well. I don't have any photos from anyone else. I haven't gotten the link from the professional photographer that took the family pictures. Mine are up and the link is sent.

Today is PT. I hurt today. I finished my book last night, so I stayed up too late again last night. I haven't been sleeping well. I'm not sure why, just can't seem to get comfortable. I have been taking the ibuprofen like the PT suggested, but i don't know that it is making a difference. We are past a week of the MRI and still don't know results. I am kinda just wondering about that. The PT seems to think it won't be anything. A friend of mine got in a wreck in Sept and she has to have surgery on her lower back. Her accident wasn't even as bad as mine. Just crazy.

The honey is off work today as he is studying for his finals. We went to dinner last night and it was awesome. Our favorite steak house. I get to eat it for lunch today too!! Work is busy, but good. Boss has been full of piss and vinegar, giving alot of shit, but its funny. Its partly why I love my job. Joking around and having fun while at work, its what makes it less work-like.

Looking forward to some PT. Looking forward to some new exercises. I was showing the kids a couple of the exercises that I have to do for PT on the ball and they both thought they were hard. Which they are, but funny that the kids, active and athletic, thought they were hard and I have to do them every day with my fat ass.

The kids are getting ready for finals, we are all looking forward to vacation and Christmas time. Still no word from their dad on tickets. Oh well. Seriously not my problem. We will do something if they don't go. I will feel very sad for them. But unfortunately, he is a selfish prick and spending his life with his bitch is currently more important than his kids. They are busy in their lives and thats exciting. The Princess is working on track season. I need to get her a new physical. The boy is working on the school newspaper and being himself. They both spend much time working my last nerve, but thats not to say its bad. They are teenagers. Its their job to drive me nuts, but fortunately, they are good kids... still...so far.... I love them to death. I know how sad the Princess is not to be at her dad's, but man, I am SOOOO glad she is with me. I think she is happy in her life and how things are going. She's got great friends, and I think that what she likes the most is the knowledge that she's not going to be uprooted. She gets to go through High School with the same people. Her best friends here are awesome and they are all crazy ladies. The boy likes everyone, everyone is his friend. He has a crush on a girl and its the cutest thing, though we've had to nip it in its bud since he's not allowed to have a girlfriend and they were getting too close and doing too much "not going out" stuff. Hanging out all the time, going to the movies, etc.

Love the kiddos, love the honey, thinkin life aint too bad right now.. with the exception of chronic pain in my neck. I need to fix the house up. Get shit in order, get shit thrown away. After the new year, when finances calm down, I will be working that malfunction. I almost ripped up all the carpet in the living room and dining room the other day on a whim. The Honey stopped me. I will be paying someone to fix the bathrooms first.. then the kitchen/dining room, front yard has to be in there too. So much for vacation, money is going into the house.. heh. excellent. I actually want to go to Disney World if honey has to go to orlando for work. Take the kids. All kinds of things running through my head this morning. Off I go to work..

{listening to King of May by Natalie Merchant}

cold..........

That is what it has been since last week. Damn cold. I think the high has been MAYBE in the 30's. It snowed on saturday some more and then, the weather channel said it was bitterly cold. I think it got up to 0 saturday night. I can't seem to get warm.

I didn't sleep last night, but for a few hours. I am tired today. Had to get a new coffee maker yesterday. That was a challenge. I was almost brought to tears by the death of my Aroma Grande, that Starbucks doesn't make anymore. Ended up getting another Starbucks coffee maker, but its not nearly as easy to use or sexy. Still makes excellent coffee.

Saturday was shopping and i ended up dropping a glass bottle in the middle of the checkout line at Ross. I was mortified, but shopping continued. It snowed all day saturday, which was cold, but gorgeous. I am getting over my fears of driving on the ice, well a little bit. I am no longer confined to the house on days that it snows. I can enjoy the day and get out and do stuff without the fear paralyzing me. Chad drove, but it was a nice day, just the 2 of us.

My neck has plagued me since friday night. I haven't done much, except shopping, and had to drug up for that. Today my neck is very stiff and sore and combined with being tired has given me a headache. I am tired of its inconvenience and have more or less decided to just drug through the rough days and continue with my life. It makes it hard, it makes me grumpy and I snap at everyone, but I think they understand.

Today is another cold one and though there is no snow in the forecast, it is all over the ground. I wish that I had my camera cause the view from work is postcard perfect. Its a golf course, a lake and houses set at the base of the mountain. It is certainly gorgeous, an awesome place to sit and contemplate, if I weren't at work and it wasn't too cold to be outside. Nice to look at during smoke breaks though.

Tomorrow is PT. Still no word from the MRI or the Dr. Need to call the attorney today and stop by there on my way home to give them some papers from my insurance.

i've made it

to Friday. This has been one long week. I have been more busy than I expected and just keep being on the run. I haven't had the inclination to log into my game even once. I do believe I will be leaving my current guild for a much larger more experienced guild, but not quite sure exactly when. Probably this weekend.

I had PT yesterday again. I hurt today. I have been doing my best to work hard at the exercises to ensure that I make progress, but some days they are just rough. I do see a pay off, though, and actually think i'm losing weight. It doesn't help my neck any to actually work at the exercises, which is discouraging. Still no word from the MRI.

Busy yet again today. Keep on truckin along. Haven't even got itunes cranked up yet this morning.

Shopping this weekend, I think. And bill paying. But thats ok too.