Grumpdillicious

Yeah, i'm grumpy grumpy today. I went to bed pissed at the Princess because I can't seem to enforce the priority of school and doing well in school. I got up yelling at the boy because he was decided that the time he needed to get in the shower this morning was when I get in the shower..every morning. Plus, there were no towels.

Work is psycho stupid crazy. shit was broke this morning, fixed it, people calling because shit i can't fix is also broke, people calling this morning because they are too stupid to do their job and believe that we(me) should be doing it for them. Nevermind that I will teach you how to do it, no no.. god forbid that, just do it for them and thats good. One lady has called everyday since last thursday, about 5-6 times a day, with the same questions that we go over and over with her each time. She doesn't get it, she doesn't want to get it, she wants to keep calling me. Plus, she's a bitch because the fact that she doesn't get it and doesn't want to get it is somehow reflective upon me. Interesting.. run with that logic, darling. Run far, run fast.

Its supposed to snow today. I am sore from PT. It was quite the workout after not going for a week. Went to dinner last night, it was tasty, but the kids wanted to dish it out with each other but not take it. The Honey brought me breakfast today, because i asked him to, but i just asked him and hung up. I told him that i was grumpy and didn't want to grump at him for no reason other than i am pissy for a multitude of reasons.

So.. haven't even begun to bust out some itunes this morning. Maybe I should and i will start to be less grumpilicious. Hrm.. thought. Oh.. if you haven't caught the SNL skit with Justin Timberlake called "Dick in a Box".. catch it.. hilarious..

Holy helluva

What a week it has been. Things have gone from crazy to psycho at work. I was out Thursday with a migraine that just kicked my ass. Even migraine meds only 1/2 way did the trick. Vomiting, auras, head being pounded with what felt like a sack of bricks. UGH. I stayed in bed except to puke and pee. Not saying a whole lot since I couldn't even keep water down.

The Honey comes home tomorrow, the kids have things to do tonight and tomorrow. I have gotten my starbucks on Wed and Fri of this week, which was tasty. They just don't last long enough. HA! maybe I slurp them down?

I haven't done PT this week because of the messed up schedule. The migraine yesterday did not help my neck at all. I was in bed and finally had to take a Flexeril to combat the stiffness in my neck.

I am hungry today. Very hungry. I will be getting lunch in a bit. Not sure what I will be getting though.

So I made it...

This weekend was a long weekend. Had Monday off work due to presidents day. It was actually a fairly productive weekend. The kids had a good time, I went shopping, I gamed, there was cleaning done.

The Princess went up to Denver area to visit her friend she hadn't seen since 5th grade in Arizona. We took her up to Castle Rock to meet them on Saturday. The roads were total crap and icy on the way there. The Honey drove against his wishes, but I'm glad he did. I freaked the whole way and he didn't appreciate it, but still I don't know that I could have dealt with all the traffic and ice and pileups. So we had a bit of a row because I was freaking and he was generally pissed that I made him drive. He did it anyway, though, thats why I love him. He didn't just tell me to suck it up and get on the road myself. Grumpily, he drove it. He didn't protest at doing it, just let it be known he wasn't happy about it. When we finally got home, he went to the movies with his friends while I stayed home. Figured space was needed after 2.5 hrs in the car with a freaking out woman who was riding your ass because she was freaking out. The boy went to the movies with his friends, hung out with friends, did whatever it is that boys do with their friends. He helped me clean, earned his money. I gamed. It was a nice day after the fiasco over driving, but everyone recovered.

On Sunday, the Roommate and I went back to Castle Rock to pick up the Princess. She had a good time, we ended up staying at the mall and shopping. Both the Roommate and I spent too much money, but I got a really cute Coach purse that I love a lot. The princess was a bit peeved cause she wanted one too. I just can't afford 2 Coach purses in a weekend. One was over my sensibilities limit. She got a sweatshirt and earrings and other stuff. The drive wasn't so bad since the roads were mostly clear. My car is a grimey mess after Saturday's drive. We went and had great sushi on Sunday night and the Princess went on a date, even though she says it wasn't a date. It was and she had a good time.

Monday was lounge around the house for the most part day. The Princess and I went shopping and I got 2 new sweaters, she got a new pair of pants and the Boy got 2 shirts and a sweatshirt. The Honey and I went on a date for dinner. It was Chili's but it was tasty. The Boy went and hung out with his friends, went to a movie, played some football. It was a great day outside both Sunday and Monday. Hopefully more this week.

Tuesday is starting out fairly rough at work. Crazy problems, crazy people. People unavailable because they just don't want to work on the issue. *sigh* its kinda crazy busy. I have therapy today. The Honey leaves on business tomorrow morning. He's gone the rest of the week and comes home on Sat. My hours are adjusted so that I can take the kids to school. Its just going to be a crazy week.

Starbucks rocks

So, its finally friday. Thank god for small favors. I am SORE SORE SORE after PT yesterday. My neck is nearly immobile. Not necessarily because of PT, but mostly because we have started light exercises and it works those muscles, which are not so politely refusing to be worked at all. It is just more confirmaton of the rhizotomy in a month to hopefully provide a more permanent relief. Though, at only 2 weeks after the facet injections and the pain is returning in full force, I don't have high hopes that the rhizotomy will actually be permanent. Nonetheless, the March 14 appointment can't come soon enough.

So a friend of mine sent me an email informing me that the Starbucks is offering free t-shirts Feb 15-Feb 28. They have a limited number each day and a specific time that they get started giving them away. I got mine yesterday and it is in the mail. But, anyway, the design of the t-shirt is "Your" starbucks drink. And you customize it and they put that on a t-shirt and send it to you for free. Now.. I love starbucks. Probably more than the next person, but less than some people. So, I naturally got my t-shirt. I also had to call my sister to tell her since we used to go to starbucks EVERY morning on our way to work. This was a few years ago when we worked near each other and actually lived in the same state. She also used to be a Starbucks manager and continues to have her daily starbucks. Unfortunately for me, I don't get mine daily anymore. Mostly because I have to be at work before Starbucks opens, so there really is no point in stopping if they are closed and can't give me my coffee. But.. a free t-shirt, customized by me, yeah.. starbucks rocks. The honey is going to bring me starbucks this morning. He is awesome.

I am still listening to madonna. I think I have like 3 more albums left. I *might* get through them today. Its not torture, otherwise I would change it. I can do that since I really am in control of the iTunes, right? Right. HA. iPod/iTunes controls me!! I still love my iPod, though I haven't listened to it much in the past couple weeks. I just been busy. I need to get in the habit of listening to it while I sit at my computer.

Speaking of computers. The Princess' power supply went out yesterday. She had a near panic attack because she was chatting with J, the boy that she fancies. I got her hooked up on the laptop. This took all of about 2 minutes and she was freaking. *sigh* Teenage girls are sooo dramatic.

The boy wanted to stay home sick yesterday. I made him go to school. He came home after puking in the hallway on the way to the nurses office and when he got there had a fever of 100. Oops, my bad for not believing he was sick. I apologized to him, but he was still jumping around and not looking like he feels sick when I got home.

The princess is home today not feeling good. She is also just kinda not going to school to get some chores done so that she has money to go to Parker to visit her friend this weekend. She had a tough time deciding if she wanted to stay home or go to school because she doesn't get to have her date with J. tonight or go out with any other friends. Its a rule. You stay home sick from school, you stay home sick from friends. She tried to beg, plead, steal, bargain me out of it, but I have held firm on that one with the Boy so many times, its easy to to stick on that one.

Hopefully work will be slow enough that I can just cruise through the day and not actually have to do any mind work. I do have to deal with Pivot table troubleshooting, though, which is sucky and I will have to think about it. But, its one of those things that if I can't figure it out, I'm off the hook. Those kinds of things are kinda best effort. Most things I can tell you how to do, or how to figure out, pivot tables are their own little beast that I try to stay away from.

{listening to Don't Cry for me Argentina by Madonna(of course)}

deadlines & viruses

This week has just been crazy at work. Our satellite offices (about 300 of them) have a deadline for submitting data to us. We provide the format and the data required. They decide (as they do every year) that the last 3 days is when they need to hop on getting their data submitted. As the only person that is supporting the software used for submitting the data, I have been busy busy busy. I also have a user who is crying because her home computer is just totally infected with a virus. Cleaning this over the phone is rough. I am about ready to offer to come over to her house to fix it or try to. Its just rough. We also launched a new program yesterday, that, SURPRISE .. is broken. Now this isn't our groups fault, we just have to take all the irate phone calls for it. Please note the release of another product back in Sept/Oct that caused me headache. I believe i documented my pain and suffering in the blog back around that time. Well.. this product is based o the previous product, by the same screwball development company, who couldn't find their ass with both hands and a map. This has caused a ton of work for the honey, and my headache with the whole thing is just starting since they released a piece of shit.. again. The project manager of this project is a total moron and I don't know how he keeps his job. He fucked up the last release, he's fucking up this one. We've lost funding, schools, teachers, etc. and he maintains his stupid job. If i even thought about fucking up 1/2 as bad as he has, I would be fired. Fortunatley, I don't fuck up on that scale, or that often.

My neck is hurting and like i have mentioned, just gradually getting worse. Its still better than it was, but I am hoping that the rhizotomy is a more permanent type of resolution. The knot is back, the stiffness, catching and headaches are back, though not as severe. I have PT today and am still doing light neck exercises. We have stepped up some of the knee exercises too, which is good.

I wore my size 14 pants today to work. They were tight, but not uncomfortable. I was proud of this. I think I am going to try on some more this weekend to see if its a fluke. 2 more sizes by may.. i think i can do it, but we'll see. I wish that I could do more cardio. My therapist said that I should ask the doctor if I can do treadmill and such at the gym.

Both the princess and the boy start track next week. The princess informed me that she is trying out for cheerleading for the fall. I think thats great, she can make varsity easy enough because of her gymnastics. Not sure that she has the rhythm to be a cheerleader, but she could probably do it if she tries hard and practices. The drawback to cheerleading is that it is holy hell expensive.

The princess is going to see her friend from 5th grade in AZ who lives in colorado now. I think she's spending the weekend there. We are meeting at the outlet malls in castle rock. I am gonna try to go shopping a little bit. I really want some new sweaters, maybe a Coach purse. We'll see how finances look though. The honey needs new tires on the Expedition.

The boy is complaining he is sick... again. I am wondering what is up with him. I made him go to school since he has or has tried to be out of school at least one day a week since the holiday break. They both get 2 weeks off here soon enough and will be spending it in sunny san diego with their idiot father. I didn't realize when he made the place reservations that he has them coming home easter weekened. This throws my plans out the window of going to IA with the honey, but oh well. We'll have to see how that all works out as the time nears closer.

I recently got all my madonna albums ripped to iTunes so I have been listening to Madonna. Man, I recognize that in the 80's my mom wouldn't let me wear the lace and necklaces and torn clothes, even though I did. But truly, her music hasn't aged past its prime. Sure there are some songs that are really 80's songs, but most of her stuff has maintained the sound of the current. This is just listening to the songs. I'm sure if I looked at the CD covers or watched a video I would cringe, run to a corner cower and cry. But the songs themselves have maintained relatively well. Even from the 90's, which were some of her better albums. I am also still a big fan of her most recent work. I type that because I have my iTunes to play the songs once, in order of least number of times played, until I cycle through them. I haven't gotten around to making actual playlists yet, but I kinda like this way because I get to hear the stuff that I don't normally choose on the ipod. So, anyway, since I recently imported Madonna, she's top of the not played list and I am just working my way through the list. Now, the drawback for this, is that once I go through her once, and all the other songs that haven't been played before, she's back at the top of only been played once. Fortunately, I also put some aerosmith in there that hasn't been played. So, for the next few days, I think I'll be listening to some aerosmith and all of madonna. Flogging Molly and Elvis Costello are next though. I love Flogging Molly. One of my favorite bands of all time. I missed Tatu at Jack Quinn's last night, but oh well. I would have just liked to have gone and saw them.

{listening to La Isla Bonita (Instrumental version) by Madonna}

Sexy Back

No, I'm not brining Sexy Back. That is Justin Timberlakes job. I just really like that song and its on my iTunes right now and I couldn't think of anything for a title today. That is a catchy tune.

Busy week at work ahead of me. I slept good, but not much so I am still tired. Played my game for a while this weekend. Almost got another level. Man its slow going, but still fun. Maybe tonight I'll get the level and then next weekend i'll get one more. I also started playing my other character and maybe I will get both of them to the highest. I think the Honey is going to be the first one with 2 characters at the highest level. Oh well, it probably won't be me, thats for sure. There is some stuff I am going to have to research this week for the game, but its still pretty fun.

Got the house cleaned, got the kids some money. They actually helped. Not without kicking and screaming, but they helped alot. Now to keep them earning their money every day.. that is the challenge. The house looked nice and we got almost everything I wanted done.

Have therapy Tues/Thurs this week, but hopefully its going to be good. I sat at my desk alot this weekend and could feel my neck tightening up. I took 2 flexeril for sleep last night and that seemed to help, so I'm not SUPER sore today, but i wouldn't have been able to get to sleep without the meds either, I was so sore. Oh well. I keep marchin forward.

Great music rotation today. Super Duper Love by Joss Stone is closing this post out today!

Fabulous Friday..

Ok, I lied. Its not all that fabulous. Its kinda blah, actually. Been busy at work. Got house work planned for the weekend, got therapy planned for this evening. The Honey is sick, the kids have stuff to do, but i'm making them cancel to help me clean the house. I know its not Spring, but its definately time for spring cleaning... cause I'm the mom and I said so.

My neck "golf ball" is slowing making its appearance again. I guess the rhizotomy is what needs to happen. Its been a week. The pain has subsided considerably, but every day is a new day in determining how its going to react to sitting for a long period or, like today, doing my therapy. I am kinda not anxious about therapy today.

Work has been moderately busy today, but not too bad. Still got a deadline I'm working with customers on, and thats causing major tight scheduling, but oh well, I'm workin' it. We are also releasing a new program next wednesday, but for the people supporting it, we haven't even got to see it yet. Now, we did get some documentation on it, which is a huge improvement over the nothing we usually get, but still I need some answers.

Hopefully cleaning will go fast with the kids helping me and I will get the opportunity to play my game. I am actually having fun again. WOOHOO! I would also like to get out and shoot some pool, but we'll see how that goes.

Where's the weekend already?

Its Thursday. It has been a long week, seemingly. I have been busy at work, been busy at home. So many things on my to-do list, that I just can't even contemplate them all. I think I will have kids stay home this weekend and we will make a dent in housework.

The honey is home sick today. I went to PT yesterday. We didn't start back into neck exercises, but we are going to on Friday. The more I sit at a computer, the more the pain comes back. Its unfortunate that this is now a permanent injury. I hate that. I hate that for the rest of my life, I will have to buck up the funds to have a fairly expensive surgery every few years just to maintain.

No time really to type this morning, got lots of work to get done.

{listening to Re-Arranged by Limp Bizkit}

5 days

Its been 5 days since my neck injections. They are starting to wear off a bit. I can feel some of the pain and stiffness returning, but still not as bad as it was. I talked to the dr.'s office and I am getting back into PT right away. And I can start neck exercises. I also set up the appointment for a month out to have the nerves cauterized. This seem so permanent. They are sending me more information on it, but I guess its my only option if I can't get longer than a week of no pain. I have also had a headache since the procedure, which I am not real fond of. They said this was not uncommon.

I am still contemplating a new phone for the Princess since her dad believes that to be his last vestige of control over me and her. Let her keep the phone he got her, let him call her on it. Other than that, he can go fuck himself sideways with all his bullshit. I am truly sick of his crap. He doesn't give a rats ass or concern about the Boy, he just thinks its alright to give the Princess a huge load of shit, process what he said for a few days, feel bad, then say "im sorry". Well Sorry doesn't fuckin cut it. Sorry doesn't take away all the shit you said to her and how you got her to cry herself to sleep. You are truly an amazing fucking parent you cocksucker. It is unfortunate that after 22 years of friendship, he has become an gigantic black hole of narcissism and I really wish he'd give up his half-assed notion of parental control and leave me and them the fuck alone. He just doesn't fucking get that they are afraid to tell him what an asshole he is being, so they keep it inside or tell me. And he doesn't listen to me, so they just suck up everything that he says and does to them; every mean word, every broken promise, every forgotton birthday or holiday, every check in the mail that never arrives. I am really still on fire over his bullshit this weekend. That just steamed me to no end. And yet, I was calm and chose my words carefully on the phone, but he still tells the princess that I yelled at him. What a fucking lying cock. Play the game you whore. I am not as dumb as you think I am and I am aware of far more than you think.

Now.. back to the regularly scheduled programming.. work has been busy, weird little thing busy, but thats ok. I slammed my hand into the door jam this morning, and think I broke my hand. It is swollen, has a knot and hurts to move it. Typing is a chorse this morning. Still working on hiring

So.. thats about it. I think I ranted so much cause I have been listening to Nine Inch Nails this morning. HA! Anger therapy! I am hungry.. have headache, hurt hand and therapy today. WOOT

Results?

Well, I got my spinal shots on Saturday morning. They said they would give me happy drugs, but that i wouldn't pass out. Guess what? Hour later in the recovery room, I was waking up. HA! Hope it was a good nap. Even before I left the hospital, I was feeling better. NOticable pain decreate, even the stiffness in my neck was better. I have to call back today to talk and explain a couple of the things that I am experiencing, find out when I can go back to PT, schedule my next appointment, etc., but overall, much improvement.

I didn't get out to do much because, despite the improvement, they still shoved needles in my neck so i have sore muscles. But I was able to play a little on the computer on Sunday, even went out of the house! Saturday I stayed in bed all day. I was tired, and sore, but, like I said, still improved.

On friday, shit hit the fan with the ex-husband and princess over her text messages. He railed her up one side and down the other, but when I called him on it, he didn't have the balls to give me shit. What a fucking coward. Can't get into it with me, but can certainly make a 15yr old feel like ass. He even drug the boy into it, and unfortunatley he got sucked in. He felt like crap too, but I think he's learning his dad's games. Too sad for his dad. His fucking girlfriend I am sure is behind a bunch of this nonsense, not that she wants the princess to live there anyway. She is too jealous of her to actually let that happen again. I just don't know what the hell their problems are. Grow the hell up, people. Man, I am sad to say that I really just don't like the girlfriend. She can go to hell. Sadly, their dad isn't gonna realize that she caused issue between him and his kids until it is too late. It makes me wonder if she's got super-pussy or something, the way she controls him. He is a totally different person now that he's with her. Maybe mind-control pussy. UGH.. i just don't like her, but he's a big boy, pushin 40 and needing to act more like his 27 yr old girlfriend than an actual adult with kids.

On top of that, Friday was not the day that I wanted to deal with his crap, I was nervous, didn't feel good, etc. and instead I spend the afternoon/evening trying to make him see some god damned sense. Fuck him sometimes. Needless to say, it got worked out, though he ended up telling me and telling the princess 2 different versions of the events, so I'm pretty sure its not worked out, but he'll just hold it for me until the next time. What a cock. It is truly unfortunate that one of my best friends since I was 14, the father of my 2 kids, can't continue a friendship after 22 years. Buck up fool, she aint worth losing your friends and your kids.

Well, besides that, not much happened this weekend because, I couldn't do anything. I did almost get another level in my game. I might try to finish that tonight. So very close. Work is going to be busy this week, I have a feeling. I didn't watch the Super Bowl, but I did put like $15 in the pool. I got a call from one of my friends sayin I had won like $50, but that she had won like $250. Good for both of us. We'll see if I won more than that! The game wasn't over when she called. Maybe I mopped up. I don't even know how I won, which is probably the saddest part. It was one of those fill in the square things. $1 or $5 a square. Beyond that, I don't really know how its tallied or how a winner is declared, but I will gladly take my ignorant winnings!!

There was no snow this weekend. It was all over by Saturday morning. So that was a plus. Still cold as shit on Saturday, but Sunday was much better. Dare I say, Sunday was a pleasant day outside. Being that I actually ventured outside, I can say that.

Witches Tits in a Brass Bra

Holy shit has it been cold this week. OMG this morning the kids schools were delayed because of -18 degree wind chilld. The roads have been icy because of snow, but no work delays. I was kinda hoping today work would be cancelled, but alas, it wasn't.

I have my cervical spine injections tomorrow. They called to move up the appointment. I am nervous. I have PT today, but am sore as all hell. I have been sleeping better, but still not good. Still going to bed after 10.

Work has been busy, kids have been busy. I am sure they are busy this weekend, but I won't be able to do anything because of my shots. They put you out, or give you an epidural. Then suggest 24-48 hrs rest. So, we'll see.